Violence ,Devil, Woman

i am broken my head is heavy my eyes struggles to open wide like it normally does my lips sealed and dry. I can feel a sharp piercing force on the right side of my head im not sure if its my imagination. I try to regain composure but it doesn’t want to come back. I feel so weak, so human, so woman. As i look at my fists, they appear so thin and powerless so helpless, my arms so slender without a trace of strength. My anger my courage my rage are meaningless I want to find a way to express them without enraging the brainless. For their fists are much more thicker their arms much more powerful. I am a raging demon myself but a demon without physical strength. I’d like to strengthen this demon to manipulate to corrupt to poison to gain.

11/26/08 11:25 PM Sleep Difficulty

I honestly, truthfully regret drinking coffee this morning, i think the caffeine is kicking in tonight. I know its kind of idiotic to blame it on a coffee taken in the morning but i remembered what i read about coffees taken in the morning, read it somewhere in BBC’s website. The bad thing is all that i can do is write about it coz i believe its gonna help fill in the time while i try to force myself to sleep.

Been listening to Mr. Mraz’s songs for about an hour and now im listening to Colbie’s coco album. Oh well, i guess i’ll drown my brain with nicotine…Im not really sure where nicotine goes, lungs or brain? Im that idiotic. BUT daaaaamee! I wanna rubberneck myself infront of the mirror and bitch out on myself coz im actually been trying to quit for a week now. hmmm i can say im pretty succesful about it unless i’ll truly have another stick tonight. bbbbbbbbbbbbllllllllllllllllllaaah blaaah blaaaaah!!! SUX!

Colbie Calliat – Coco (2007) REVIEW

i give her album 4 out of 5 stars. im not an expert but i know a good song when i hear it. ^_^

i describe her album as mostly feel good music, easy to listen to, catchy, nice, pleasant, each song is unique melody-wise, some songs give off that country music vibe.

TRACK 01 – Oxygen
soothing intro with its guitars and drumbeats, catchy, one of my favs in the album. good song.

TRACK 02 – The Little Things
Obviously one of her best. i like it a lot.

TRACK 03 – One Fine Wine
i like this one sounds like pop country music those kinds of song that makes you tap your feet without noticing.

TRACK 04 – Bubbly
Another hit from Colbie. Everybody knows its good. thumbs up

TRACK 05 – Feelings Show
For me its a so-so but even if it is, its not really a boring song, it just doesn’t stand out like her other songs.

TRACK 06 – Midnight Bottle
I especially like the lyrics in this one. I like the way she sings about drinking all her problems away just like many people. i like the melody as well.

TRACK 07 – Realize
Isn’t it amazing? her album doesn’t run out of hits. Undeniably good song. who couldn’t agree?

TRACK 08 – Battle
a song about couples having fights and struggling to keep the relationship strong. sung in first person not very upbeat like the other songs. its ok.

TRACK 09 – Tailor Made
Strong country music vibe catchy but not really my favorite.

TRACK 10 – Magic
A girl’s fascination with her man is what this is about. So-so song, good melody.

TRACK 11 – Tied Down
Another song that keeps me thinking shes a country singer. easy to listen to. but i didn’t liked it the first time i heard it. Took me 4 – 5 listening to appreciate it.

TRACK 12 – Capri
Now this one, receives a negative from me. I don’t really like it. hmmm…is it safe to say that, ONLY pregnant women will be the most to appreciate it.

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NOTE: i don’t really own an original copy. But if you guys got Extra money to spend and like to hear some good music i recommend this album. I think its safe to buy since most of the songs are good.

that’s all folks!

November 14, 2008 10:05 PM

Name: Hera Tan Dalapag

age: XX

b-day: February X, XXXX

zodiac: Aquarius

hair color: Black

eye color: dark brown

skin color: bluish

height: 160 cm

weight: 110 lbs

gender: F

nationality: F

race: south east asian

genus: homo sapiens sapiens

fav. tv show: none

fav. movie: none

fav. song/genre: pop, punk pop, trip hop, electronica, baroque pop, japanese pop

fav. artist/band: (currently) Paramore, Panic at the Disco

fav. actor/actress: Ellen Page

fav. gadget: PSP

fav. food: ginisang mongo

fav. drink: lipton green tea

fav. hangout: black plastic chair

fav. friend/person/object(as a friend?): ballpen&paper, bakakido, pc

fav. parent: mom ofcourse!

fav. website: youtube, wikipedia

fav. word: fook, pok, dok

fav. book: none

fav. author: haruki murakami

Interests: new things i havn’t read, watched, tried, ate

Hobby: blogging, writing giberish, listening to music, watching movies

Personality: quiet, moody, more drawn to art than logic (but i dont really know so whatever)

Thought of the moment: i feel sleepy, bored and i wanna pee but i feel lazy and why do i even write about these. Gradeschoolers do this and i think this ballpen is useful!

i got a blank face and i cant smile!

“Oi” thats how i call you, i aint brit i aint jap but thats how i call you,

I liked how you describe my face.

You got everything right! you exactly know how i look like

when im mad, when im glad, when im pissed off.

Yes! its all the same! my face is a total blank.

I can’t smile at you even if you are kind,

my face muscles can’t move it feels like its in a bind.

Forgive me you kind person i didnt mean to hurt you,

As to why my face cant smile back i dont have a clue.

This is a post i made in paramorefans.com

Username: Hertsi

First name: Hertsi

Age: 22 (ifeel old) turning 23 btw

Gender: F

How did you come across this amazing fansite that is paramorefans.com?: ahhh i think i was looking for a Riot! font and then this site came out. thank you for the font btw im sorry didnt get the chance to thank you in that thread coz i wasnt a member yet that time.

How did you come across the amazing band that is Paramore/ how long have you been a fan?: Well i hear them a lot on radio and i see them on MTV but at first i didnt think theyre good i just look at the screen blankly and see that wonderful being hayley. i didnt know theyre good i didnt realized it. Ive been a paramore fan since last month (im a noob)

Favorite Paramore song?: Decoy, Lovesick Melody, When it Rains

Favorite lyric?: Whoa how could you do it, whoa oh ……..

Any live show experiences you’d like to share?: ahhh man it sucks coz i live in asia.

Interests: Blogging, Reading, Watching Movies with ellen page in it.

Other Music:
I used to like Japanese POP. used to like the SPICE Girls, i also like TELEPOMUSIK, DAFT PUNK, MODJO and the like…

currently im listening to Panic at the Disco songs

actually im listening to:

Panic at the Disco
My Chemical Romance

and maybe a lil later ill listen to Automatic Loveletter

christmas christmas

waaah its almost xmas! Im so excited!

maaaaaan this is going to be the best christmas for me! Its because of this being called bobby.

We live oceans apart but no matter how far we’re exchanging gifts! Yesterday i bought his present!

Im so proud of my present haah coz i made it myself… i bought it but its my design… ha keep

guessing bobby! the thought of sending it overseas gives me chills, what if it gets lost or something

but at the same time im so excited about it, imagine it bobby, something i held with my hands is

gonna be in your  hands. Man it’s gonna be awesome. Im excited about your big boz of ipis coming here too

man i hope you also sent a baygon.

whooa atleast this xmas i got something to look forward to, even if its a box of ipis its still so

awesome!

hah i love you bobby!

The Screen

Everything I see on this gleaming surface of glass. All the faces and all the letters, along with the millions of colors and radiation piercing in through my eyes.
They are all entirely mine.

The contexts and experiences, the sensations the humor and the grievances,
they are all entirely mine.

I am the one and only witness to these emotions. I hold them all in.
From the screen straight to my soul, straight to my consciousness they fill the void
that visits. If i ever let them go and release through my mouth, they vanish like a
cloud of smoke soaring up into the air from this cigarette.

The collection of these feeling’s meaning disappear and they are generated as some
irrelevant imagination.

As I’ve said, they are all entirely mine. For they are non-existent to those who force themselves to hear it.

Dear Bobby,

You have this certain power over me. As our conversations creep into my mind, my lips start to form a curl at both ends. I smile in the dark alone and i can only realize it if i do it for too long. And then i start a question in my head, I couldn’t answer it for myself. That’s why i end up writing about it, and when im done writing, I still haven’t found the answer. You are amazing!

baklaw! mite mite kore~

i made this when i thought of you friday night. its because i know you are so Bakla.

this is for you!